This week was neither good nor bad. A positive change from last week's highest highs and lowest lows. I feel a bit emotionally hungover from last week, but otherwise surprisingly calm as June brings some major uncertainties for our family. It occurred to me that our last few cancelled events are coming up next week. We would have been gearing up to celebrate our 11 year wedding anniversary with a trip down to DC to celebrate our 15 year Georgetown reunion. It was supposed to be our first trip away from the kids since Liv's birth. But, that was as far as our extended plans went before quarantine. June will just be a regular 'ole quarantine month. A wild milestone, but also kind of nice? I'm tired of mourning all the cancellations.
Onto the random thoughts!
1. In honor of our 11 year anniversary tomorrow, I'm going to tell you a story that perfectly sums up our marriage. I asked Ryan what would happen if I lost my mind during this quarantine and tried to kill everyone in the apartment. He immediately responded that he would gently push me out and lock the door. When I bring next-level drama, he answers with calm logic. I can't decide how I feel about the answer. I am pleased that he would protect the babies and treat me so gently, but I am also pissed that he considers me such a minimal threat.
2. Has anyone read Flowers in the Attic? If so, does quarantine make you think about it? No, just me? Yeah, probably just me.
(Of course Lifetime did a movie version)
3. Our nanny is a genius. Javi has been giving her trouble on stroller walks because he wants to get out of the stroller and go to the playground. She had a policeman tell Javi that the playgrounds are closed and that it isn't her fault. He is now compliant. When she thanked him, the policeman told her that he has done it many times and it is his second mission during this crisis. It made me sad that not everyone gets treated that way by the police. It also made me feel like we live in a post-apocalyptic Sesame Street.
4. I know I am a broken record, but I am still crazy grateful for childcare. Crazy grateful. The fact that my children have 3 adults loving and caring for them through a crisis is really huge. Each of us has our moments, but collectively, we are hopefully giving them some sense of stability. Children really need villages and I'm so sad for all the children without their villages.
5. I remember watching Watchmen with Ryan this past December and always thinking how hot they must get wearing masks all the time. I never in my wildest dreams would have imagined personally knowing the answer 6 months later. I was right, it is like wearing a tiny inferno across your face. But, I will be wearing that tiny inferno across my face until this thing is over.
6. On that note, the tiny inferno actually makes me not want to go outside as much. I'm slowly getting used to breathing my own air, but I would honestly rather stare out an open window. The parks are still too packed and walking the sidewalks is too depressing with all the closed businesses. It is all too real and too unreal at the same time.
7. My unending search for disinfectant cleaner continues. Now I'm going to just start begging on the internet. If you can spare some, please send my way! And why is it still all gone???? I miraculously got a Windex Disinfectant on FreshDirect a month ago, but we are starting to run low. I heard some people in Texas can't get avocados. I will ship you avocados in exchange for disinfectant!
8. I am VERY curious to see how things go with all of these states opening up. I watch my social media with a mix of fear and curiosity. Watching people go back to salons and meeting up with friends now feels like watching people in a horror film decide to split up and investigate the strange noises in their rental cabin in the woods.
Keep your chins up and your tiny infernos on, my friends!
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