Friday, April 10, 2020

Some More Random Thoughts in the Time of Coronavirus

1. This is not the time to assess the state of your relationship with anyone. All the rules have been thrown out and everyone is in survival mode. There is no right way to be a significant other, friend, parent, sibling or child right now. This is too hard.  If everyone in your house is driving you crazy, that doesn't mean there is anything wrong with the underlying relationships. We are being forced to live in a way that is not normal or healthy. Hang in there, you will have plenty of time later to psychoanalyze everything, but it isn't useful right now. 


2. It is easier to be infected by coronavirus than it is to be bitten by a zombie. All of my mental preparations for the zombie apocalypse are useless.  


3. Doesn't it seem weird now that work always had priority over family? Work travel occurred more than family travel. Work/client dinners took priority over family dinners. Work needs usurped family needs. Family gets FaceTimed while work colleagues and clients get our actual faces. When discussions are had about the breakdown of family values, why do we not talk about how we've used technology to tie us closer to work than to family? 


4. You know that ridiculous idea that girls are less active than boys? I remember really believing it when Javi was younger and he was so active compared to everyone else who had girls at the time (most of my friends having babies at the same time had girls). I was excited to have a break from all the movement when I found out Olivia was a girl.  Well, her new nickname is "terremoto" (earthquake in Spanish). Ryan and I were looking at videos of Javi at 11 months and we were amazed at how often he would sit quietly and read books. When Olivia is awake, she is in constant motion and not content to sit quietly anywhere. I realized today that I shouldn't be surprised that both of my kids are more active than normal. Now that Ryan and I are together 24/7, I realize that if I am ever still for a long period of time, he actually checks to see if I am asleep. Apples don't fall far from the tree and I'm looking forward to all of my active adventures with my little earthquake. 


5. I wish so badly to be able to go outside again, but will I actually feel safe doing it when we get the go ahead? I think back to all the times that I would squeeze myself into a packed subway train or bus and wonder if I will ever be able to do that again. 


6. I am amazed at our resilience as a species. I consider myself more emotional than most and this week, I haven't cried. I still see the death toll numbers every day and still follow the news, but I've become resigned. Although I keep a pulse on the outside world for survival purposes, my focus has turned inward. How do I keep my children thriving as much as possible? How do I keep Javi distracted to reduce the number of times he asks us to go outside and to the beach? How do I keep my household as joyful as possible?  


7. I am grateful for imagination because it is what keeps us going. We imagine new ways of combating the virus. We imagine new ways of collaborating to help us all weather the pandemic. We imagine new ways to create and entertain during confinement. We imagine new ways of keeping our youth learning and thriving. We imagine new ways of staying connected but physically distant. We imagine the end of this trying time and a new world order. Imagination gives us hope. 


8. Unlike most people who move to NYC, I came here for Ryan and not for the city. After 12 years here, I’ve fallen in love with the city, but only by acknowledging that I always need to live close to a park and/or water. As I am currently unable to enjoy nature due to so many people not following protocol in the parks, I miss it so much and am so thankful that I can at least see nature through social media (fav account on insta right now is @theshepardswife). I am so grateful for nature, I will cherish it greatly when this is over and I am ecstatic that it is getting a break from all of our harmful ways. I hope we can do a better job at protecting it in the future. 


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